Date: 08/08/2008
Toto: 8million SGD winning draw
Estimated number of bets: 4million
1 winning string of 6 numbers
1 to a few winners among 4.6million Singaporeans

What's the point when only a few people wins because they got lucky?
No thrill to those who didn't win.
1 to a few people suddenly became richer by a few millions while many others became poorer or remain the same.
A few jumps for joy.
While the majority weeps.
Gambling is encouraged.
Theft, jealousy and dissatisfaction brews.
And if you do win, the winning money indirectly comes from the betting money that other people gave.
So what have you done?
Indirectly made others poorer.

Why not spread the joy instead?
For example, no GST charge for the whole day. or no ERP tax for the whole day too. Perhaps since National Day is tomorrow, why not let it span for a few days?
Or free goodie bags for every household. etcetc...
If it's a celebration, wouldn't it be better if everyone celebrates together and share the joy together?

I really don't get this 8million dollars toto thingy.

~Not just a Post~

だいすき (dai suki) -- love
しあわせ (shiawase) -- happiness
わらって (waratte) -- smile
まもる (mamoru) -- protect
えがお (egao) -- smiling face
あたたかい (atatakai) -- warm
あんしん (anshin) -- be comforted/don't worry
がんばります (ganbarimasu) -- jiayou
あしてる (ashiteru) -- love
ありがとう (arigatou) -- thank you
おげんきで (ogenki de) -- take care

I've decided not to put sad events in my life in this blog, because I only want to remember the happy moments. And I don't want people to feel sad reading my blog.
One slight crack today though.
The words above are dedicated to someone special.
Dear M,
I love you. May happiness surround your life and may you always smile. Although I can't really protect you for you are the one who is always protecting me, I'll try my best because I've always wanted to see your smiling face. Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. I'll ganbarimasu! You too yeah!
あしてる、
ありがとう
おげんきで　ね！
Don't cry anymore. I'll cry with you too if you do.

Bought 23 books at the NLB book fair at expo! gosh @_@

I want to watch Miyazaki's new 2008 movie: Ponyo on the Cliff (崖の上のポニョ, Gake no Ue no Ponyo)!! Hope it will come to Singapore soon!
The plot centers around a goldfish named Ponyo who desperately wants to be a human. In pursuing her goal, she befriends a five-year-old human boy, Sōsuke.
Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ponyo_on_the_Cliff_by_the_Sea

Here's the trailer~



If I'm not wrong, the movie consists of 170,000 picture frames, all hand drawn!!! No computer graphics (CG)! O_O
Looks super cute too! XD

Yesterday: Went to east coast park to cycle with my female cousin. Cycled almost non-stop for about 2 hours. Legs so suan! Ate at Jack's Place for lunch.

Today: Went to watch the movie "red cliff" or 赤壁 (chi bi) with my male cousin. Ate at shokudo at raffles place for lunch.
After the normal chinese movie, I found out that,
Zhu Ge Liang was played by Takeshi Kaneshiro. LOL
A japanese zhu ge liang O_O
HAHAHA!!!
I thought that the combination is just hilarous! lol!
Of course I'm not making fun of the actor or zhu ge liang. Takeshi played the character fine and in chinese.
But it seems like history is no longer history. Globalisation and modernisation has taken over. Fictional history is dabled with new elements of today's world. The blend between real life and history.
The romance of the 3 kingdoms chinese novel, written in the 14th century, is where red cliff is based on. In the book, its characters are totally chinese.
But now, the characters are played by people of different nationalities.
Interesting yeah!
Modern irony o.O
Of course, TK is cool! shuai! and kakkoi! xD

Tomorrow: Going to book fair at expo.

Slacking, going out, spending money.

That's my life.
And I'm lovin' it~~~

I'm having writer's block recently so I've decided to put up some pictures instead!

First of all, an interesting cloud I took just outside my home today! xD was actually better because of the reddish gold sunset but I didn't have a camera at hand. Therefore the sun went down slightly and the effect wasn't as good. But it reminds me a little of the atomic bomb explosion O_O or on a better note, castle in the sky! lol.


Now some pictures from my mum's holiday in US. I'll only put up a few sceneries. Now, contrast them with Singapore's....... lol.
Beautifully designed and so colourful!! :D


Some heavenly food called chocolate :P

I didn't show a lot because they may not want me to show their faces online and so as respect their privacy I took only those without the persons. And there are only a few of those.
Of course, there are plenty more!
Lots of greenery, flowers, lakes, extricately designed houses, buildings etc. And, good food!
TOo bad I couldn't go :(
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My ambition: To go to Japan and become an animator!!!

Well, I'm quite tired of people telling me how tough it is and so on. I KNOW! Of course I know.
Life is not easy anyway.
But that's not going to stop me. I'm a survivor!! I'll do my best! I'll take over Studio Ghibli! (just joking). lol. But of course. I'LL DO IT!
I don't need to make lots of money. All I want is to create or do something that brings smiles to people's faces.
The world is sad enough with all the economics, politics, wars and disasters.
They don't need another economist.
I'll become an animator!!!
So stop pulling me down. Some encouragement or help would be better for me.

~I don't know how long it will take, but if I don't start somewhere, I'll never get anywhere~
^_^

Today, I've decided to practice my copying skills so I copied a character's face from one of Miyazaki's movies.
Using a 3B pencil, an eraser and a ruler.


Of course, Miyazaki's drawings are a million times better than mine. And I cut away the mouth part because I used a 3B pencil and kept redo-ing the mouth till there are uneraserable smudges. :(
Used a wrong pencil again.
Sorry for the amateur work...
So, can anyone guess who is this? :D

NUS Literary Society is holding a short story and poetry writing competition 08/09! Deadline is 1st nov 2008. Join if you love to write! But of course, you will be up against me! :P
MUAHAHA
good luck!
Refer to the website for details, rules and qualifications.
Website: http://literarysociety.wordpress.com/about-the-creative-writing-competition/

Some of my recent drawings~~
P.S. I've only recently started.
Without taking drawing lessons.

While sometimes it is hard to create but easy to copy, it is sometimes hard to copy but easy to create. Was trying to draw some anime characters but looked! what happened to them! lol
Warning: You are about to see some of the worse works in the century :S lol
Tools: mechanical pencil and eraser only

The below picture is from the manga: ouran high school host club, character is Hikaru

My 1st attempt:LOL doesn't even look alike =.= Now I've got a new character! lol :S
Oh btw, I choose a picture without the eyes... Easier to draw for an amateur like me :P
And I'm only concentrating on the face, so I left out a few things. Sorry about that =X

My 2nd attempt:

Lol. Slightly more alike. But! It's really difficult to draw the same one! I really do need drawing lessons =X

Now on my 3rd drawing attempt. Becoming ambitious! I tried to draw the character Tamaki.
Here's the manga version.

LOL. This one is a challenge for me because it is side viewed + eyes and complicated hairstyle.

So here's what happened to it!!!



LOL?
1st I drew the eye but couldn't draw the side-viewed face and the hair was too complicated!
And i didn't know how to draw the other eye. So I covered with the hair :P
Oh gosh. Sorry for the weird drawing lol. The eye actually looks like a side-viewed eye :S
Well, without foundation and basics, I didn't do a very good job lol.
Other than some strange creation :P
Well I guess I did quite nice new hairstyles. HAHA
For my above drawings... I didn't know if they look more female or male lol.
But for my 2nd one, cover one side and u see a male, cover the other and you see a female, or is it just a female? :S
P.S. The drawings here are fainter than the original version because it's difficult to scan pencil works.
Note: Somehow, I cannot re-draw what I've drawn. This is terrible!!! !!!

*Original pictures are from the Ouran High School Host Club manga chapter 62 and its great mangaka!

More updates:

1) Apparently NUS CORS decided to take away the modules and put up the full list on the 3rd week of July!!! =.= Why so slowww...
2) I'm considering taking up manga drawing or animation courses. But they aren't cheap :S And I don't know where to find quality classes in Singapore. So still in consideration mode.
3) After watching so many animes, I realise that quite a few copies another. Similiar backgrounds e.g. schools, streets, relatively similiar storylines with some tweeking e.g. people going into another dimension, fightings, people going into another's body, the overused of heroes and heroines etc. Till it got quite predictable! And I'm bored. My hands itched to create something entirely NEW!
But hell, I can't draw lol. I might if I try though.
But of course there are some very good animes still!

Lastly, a conversation with my cousin.
His Japanese sensei told him that kunoichi (くノ一) is a female ninja
Then if one combines them together: くノ一 becomes 女 (female) XD haha!

Then another thing about how japanese children first learn to identify features of the face:
heno heno mo heno （への　への　も　への)

Cool yeah? :P

*Added some videos and pictures to my older posts. Take a look :)

A FICTION entry~~

Dreams (Yume 夢)


I’ve dreamt of striking 4D or toto all the time. But somehow, my dreams never came true. And neither did my dreams come true in real life. I mean it. For real.
From young, I’d dreamed big.
I’ve wanted to earn lots of money when I grow up.
I’d wished for a happy and comfortable life.
A huge house, a car, a caring husband and so on.
But my dreams never came true.
Never.
Whether I’m sleeping or not doesn’t matter. They just don’t.
However, one did come true.
I’ve always wanted to go to a University.
And now I’m in one.

As a cleaner.
Sweeping the grounds of the University. Cleaning the toilets of the University.
Should I be happy?
I never wanted to be a cleaner!
Who would want to anyway. =.=
But I’m doing it for my family. So I have to be happy.

Although I’ve scrubbed the toilets as specklessly as I could, washing away urinal misses, accidental spills, these students somehow believed that toilets have guardians.
Who are SUPPOSE to clean toilets.
“Aiyo! Toilets here so dirty sia!” One complained to the imaginary toilet god, voicing the opinions of many others.
“Ya lor ya lor!” A few others echoed.
I almost wanted to shout at them. OI! My hands are dirtier la! Who is going to clean them for me huh?! Or something like that.
But yeah yeah. This is my job. I shouldn't complain.
Well If I'm getting the income of what they would get when they graduate, with bonuses and all, perhaps I wouldn't mind.
Yet while they are at work, they may receive praises and all from others.
But me? Nothing... Only complains. Complains without actions.

So while I’m sweeping the grounds of a University, keeping the floors and toilets clean, students streamed past me as though I’m invisible.
The future elites of society.
They can’t see me.
Or pretend that I’m not there.
Even though once upon a time, the younger ones serve tea and bow in respect to the elders.
Now our backs bowed to pick up their careless litters on the floor.
Crack My spine screamed.
Oww I grimaced.
Students continued streaming past.
I straightened. Keeping my face as normal as possible, hiding the pain in my spine.
But I didn’t have to hide. Nobody even saw it. I think.

Maybe I should upgrade.
Become a professor or something then these disrespectful idiots will gape at me in awe as I spew out streams of knowledge.
Yes! I will make them bow to me!
HAHAHA!
So I crafted a small plan.
I’ll study as I work.
So one day while sweeping the floor, I edged stealthily over to a bench where a student sat.
Apparently she didn’t hear me approaching as she continued to stare at her book.
I peered over her shoulder.
Instantly I was flung back as lines after lines of huge words hit me.
Sweat poured down my face.
I could hardly breathe.
What was that?!
I couldn’t understand a word.
It said something like: わたしはごはんをたべました。
I can’t believe it.
The Chinese that I learnt during my younger days apparently didn’t cover that.
Such high standard! No wonder this place is called a university! I thought, shocked, my heart thumping rapidly against my ribcage.
Shaking my head, I tried to dispel the weird symbols in my head.
It’s giving me a headache already.

Never mind.
I heard that students sleep in lectures.
Humph. So there’s no point in being one.
Lecturers don’t seemed to be respected either.
Humph. What’s with students nowadays…
Tsktsk.

I continued sweeping the floor. My eyes on the ground. If someone were to stand on that flight of stairs in front and look down at me, he would probably think that I’m sweeping with my eyes closed.
Perhaps it was.
Me praying that I would sweep some luck to myself.
And as I open my eyes,
Ta Da! A $50 note on the floor!
Wow! I could finally treat my family to a small restaurant dinner!
Or a 1st prize 4D ticket!
Or a $1million toto winning ticket!
Then I could take my kids on a holiday! Then they wouldn't have to helplessly envy their friends.
My eyes shone brightly as I swept the floor with increasing vigour.
Yet, perhaps my eyes were opened.
And all I saw was garbage.
Meant to be thrown away.

Dreams.
I have them too.
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* How and Why "I" became a cleaner is my private affair. Everyone has problems. But not everyone has opportunities. And now, with cheaper, foreign cleaners, life's is becoming tougher. :(
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End of fictional entry~~

Minasan!! Everyone! Some updates~:

1) NUS modules for sem1 08/09 are up! :)
2) A newly created story blog by me and Yuez is up too! :D

Lastly, my family dinner at Sun with Moon @ central (at clark quay) was fantastic!!
Oishii!
Demo, yasukunai desu yo...
It wasn't not cheap lol. Even with a 30% discount, it was around $25 per person. :S
Loved the desserts! Esp the tofu cheesecake! kekeke.

yup! that's all~~

A creepy crawly episode~
COCKROACH in my room!!
First, a short crazy cockroach episode from Gintama anime as the introduction... :P



Cockroach
An insect that strikes fear or anger in everyone.
A single word can cause havoc. Suddenly you can hear screamings and whackings.
Well it happened that a cockroach ran into my room yesterday night. And I screamed! lol. A common reaction among girls I think. Screaming for their parents' or brother's help. Though there are some brave girls.
So while my father was bravely trying to find and catch that creepy thing, my mum, my sis and me were just cowering outside in fright.
Hey! We didn't just close the door and leave him alone to fight the cockroach while we comfortably soak in the cockroachless living room. Although there was a strong urge to just run away. lol.
So we helped by handing him some weapons as my father ordered.
Dad: Broomstick!
Me: Wah Dad, catching the snitch or the cockroach?
Sis: Hmm, a flying cockroach looks like the snitch.
Me: Oh ya hor! But I've checked. We don't have Firebolt or Nimbus 2000.
Dad: Oi! The kill cockroach broom la!
Me: Oh! You mean parang? Or katana. Or Zanpakutou, or--"
Dad: Normal broomstick! Or you catch it yourself hor...
"Oh okok..."
Ignoring the above "made-up" speech, we got him a broomstick, a chair and a plastic bag.
So while he was finding the cockroach after it zoomed out of my cupboard and to somewhere near my table,
The rest were doing some sort of cheerleading.
"Dad! Do you want a torchlight?"
"Dad, Do you need an insecticide or pesticide?"
"No need la! I'll just whack till it suicides."
With that, he and we(behind) were trying to find that creepy crawly for a few minutes.
In vain.
No way will I spend my night in my room knowing that a cockroach is crawling around somewhere!
Although some pro life activist will protest against cockroach homicide,
I really think I'll get a nightmare, probably imagining some huge dark brown oval creature with six hairy legs and feelers crawling over my face.
Or about Fear Factor and its ice blended cockroach juice. GROSS!
Ok I shall not go on with the description lol.
After a search with the torchlight, we found it!
Hiding at a dark spot at the corner of my room, where my room light failed to reach.
Smart HOR!
I think it must have read the hidden stack of ninja manuals in my room.
(There are lots of books in my room as I've recently borrowed them from the library)
So yeah! It's caught! Three cheers for the brave hero! lol.

End of creepy crawly episode~

*I think I should do a cockroach poll.

Book finished: Kite Runner! Great book! A must read! :)

Badminton @ NUS hall from 10-12noon.
Actually since both of us were late, we started 45 mins later. Lol.
10:45-- Game start! Theme: Forget the rules! hAvE fun!

Tactic 1:
Scary martial arts pose then... haiiiyaaaa!!! Served!
Lady Hellebusch strike 1!
YH down!!
Huh? Strike 1 only??

Tactic 2:
Backward serve using 2 hands... Kachaa!!! Served!
YH strike 1!
Lady Hellebusch strike 2!
YH down!
Huh?! 2 only??
Those pros in the other courts must be laughing! :S

Tactic 3:
Lefthand whack! Beginner's luck tactic.
Hmm. Lefthand cannot serve so use normal righthand serve. Pakk!!!
YH strike 1!
Lady Hellebusch strike 2!
YH strike 3!
Out!
Oh but Lady Hellebusch strikes it back! strikes 4!
YH down!
Oh gosh.

Tactic 4:
Lady Hellebusch serves! strike 1!
YH chiong ah!!! Oops!! Slipped and fell! Owww! :S
Half time!!

So after much sweat and blood is lost, after employing many strategic tactics, after my legs had turned wobbly from the fierce fight and after hungry pangs struck from 1hr of badminton,
I lost.
And Lady Hellebusch won.
lol. Congratz!
It was a great and fun game! Lots of laughing and joking around :P

Here's a video from the anime Gintama -- a badminton game! so exaggerating LOL.



Yay! So we changed clothes and I grabbed a 100Plus drink before we headed down to Vivo City for lunch.
Ate: Lemon chicken rice and swiss fries @ the Banquet at B1 --> Verdict: Fantasic! 5/5!
Mood: Great! We'll do that again!

Thoughts~

I love to walk along the path from the mrt to my home after the rain. As I strolled under the shady trees, the cooling breeze of the after-rain felt fresh on my skin. And the breeze would sweep through vast green fields gently, forming what seemed like the waves of an ocean. On the path I took, few cars would travel along the roads, thus the air was quiet and clean.

Normally, I would think about just going home to rest, or ways I can buck up on my studies, or how much homework I have to do when I reach home. But today, as half of my holidays are gone and as I took my time to reach home, I thought about a few things. And while sitting here and typing, I thought of a few more things.

Along the path, I questioned my existence. Why am I here?
Well, the simplest answer would be that my mother gave birth to me, so I am here. But to ask further back, why did my mother give birth to me and to no other? How did ‘I’ come about? And why is there an ‘I’? Why am I ‘I’? As in, why am I who I am? And why here and no other places?

And as I sat at my table and staring into the computer screen, I questioned the purpose of my existence. Am I here to eat, study, work, spend money then die? Am I here to seek temporary material and non-material satisfactions? Am I here to slack, play computer games and enjoy my life while other people elsewhere suffer? Then what is life? What is enjoyment? Why do some have it while others don’t? Where do the rights come from? Why the sufferings? Why the unfairness?

Ok if I continue thinking, I *might* end up being a nun. lol
Well for some questions, there are no answers. So it is what it is because it is just meant to be that way. As for answerable ones, it differs from person to person. And even if I answer it now, I may have a different answer some time later. So I’ll keep it to myself :)
What’s your answer?

~~*Society is like a huge picture puzzle and we make up the pieces. And there are no identical pieces although some have similar characteristics with another. Also, just like how a piece affects those around it, we affect the people around us too.*~~

I've been having a bad stomachache for almost 2 weeks. And the Doctor told me to abstain from dairy products till i'm fully recovered.

I can do it! I told myself.
I shall not falter at the sight of the delicious peanut butter spread, the tasty butter and the creamy cheeses in my refrigerator.
No, I'll ignore them all.
I shall use only Jam for my bread.
Come on. Jam is tasty too right? And it's all the way from US.
And there shall be no savory milk in my cereals.
None for my hot tea, coffee and milo either.

And when I go out, I must resist the cunning voices in my head.
They are trying to tempt me to the Dark Side.
I will defy the other voice that told me to Just Eat It.
How can I resist them anyway?
Shut up! I can!
I mean, I believe I can.
My tongue shall not seek the divine milk bubble tea on my left.
Neither will I believe that what I'm smelling is the aroma of some cheesy lasagna.
Impossible.
Pastamania doesn't have lasagna.
To confirm, I asked: "Is there lasagna?"
"Yes, we have beef lasagna."
No. He said no.
Just as I thought, they didn't have any.
Scanning down the menu, I must be imagining the sumptuous creamy pasta too.
It's all just an illusion.
I don't think they have that either.
Somehow my stomachache is having a bad effect on my brain.
Must be the medicine I took.
Will check with the doc again later.
Now all of a sudden I felt someone walk past from behind.
Without knowing why, I turned.
I blinked. Then turned away quickly.
I didn't see anything did I?
No, wait.
I saw someone feasting on a hot melted cheese and ham takoyaki from takopachi.
No!!
I mean, I saw a shuai ge then I turned away because I'm blushing.
Really!
I'm really not that interested in hot melted cheese and ham takoyaki.

"I feel like eating nachos cheese!!"
uh?? WHO SAID THAT?! OWN UP!
"Me too!" PJ said, looking at me.
Huh?? That was me??
No way!!
"Eh..."
"Hmm, but maybe next time ba. Cos' later not enough money to buy shoes." PJ added.
Phewwwww.

Ah... I wonder if Bugis has delifrance.
With my favourite hot chocolate and whipped cream.
But. Milk again! Why does every of my favourite food contain milk or cheese??
Sigh.

"Uncle, one milk tea pearl please."
"$1.50"
"Thanks"

Oops.

Yesterday--
Went for a swim with PJ
Then to Bugis. Bought 2 $5 watches, 1 Billabong bag and 1 Everlast canvas shoes. I shall not give the prices for the last 2. lol.
Ate beef noodles w chilli @ Honguo. Nice! but oily. Verdict: 3.5/5
That's all~~

A Day at PS~

Sister has changed into outing clothes.
Brother: Where are you going?
Sister: Out.
Brother: Of course going out la! Where are you going to?
Sister: Somewhere.
Brother: ...... Of course somewhere la! Where exactly?!
Sister: Plaza Sing la. Why you ask so much.......
Brother: Huh?!
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Went to the ladies~
Girl in washroom cubicle. Mother walks into the ladies washroom.

Mother: Girl ah! Where are you?
Girl: Here.
Mother: Where?
Girl: Here!
Mother: Which cubicle?
Girl: One of them.
Mother: Of course la! Aiya never mind. I'm going toilet too... Wait for me hor!
Girl: Ok.

Girl comes out of the washroom cubicle. Mother still hasn't.

Girl: Mummy! Where are you?
Mother: Here.
Girl: Where?
Mother: Here la!
Girl: Which one?
Mother: One of them.

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After watching a movie (PS)
Along the path from cinema exit to PS main area.

Lady Hellebusch: Wah. So many turnings after the cinema exit.
June: Yeah! It's a long way to Narnia..
Lady Hellebusch: Ah. We'll never get there like this...
June:We must believe in Aslan!
Lady Hellebusch: Aslan? He isn't real, he's a myth.
June: He was real seconds ago. I saw him. My eyes didn't fail me.
Lady Hellebusch: Your glasses looks more real to me.
June: What's wrong with glasses? Harry Potter saw Hogwarts very clearly.
Lady Hellebusch: Harry Potter isn't real either.
June: Oh he is. I read his bibliography.
Lady Hellebusch: Oh yeah? Well he's the boy who lived-- in storybooks.
June: Oh yeah. He Lived in storybooks but Lives for real. That's why it's called a biblio.
Lady Hellebusch: Alright alright... Then, shall we take platform 9 and 3/4?
June: No way! It's the school holidays! And it only gets us to NUS.
Lady Hellebusch: Ah. The boring lives of muggles...
June: Muggers you mean.
Lady Hellebusch: Indeed!

*"Aslan? He isn't real, he's a myth." (Some Telmarines didn't believe that Narnians existed)
Movie watched: Prince Caspian!

Should I change my major?
Economics has turned into mathematism and I'm going nuts. lol.
Considering English Lit, Psychology and Japanese Studies.
English Lit because I'm currently writing stories.
Psychology because it's interesting.
Japanese Studies because I like the Japanese language.
Well that's unless I can switch to accountancy or somehow miraculously get a scholarship to study animation in Japan. :)
Although we should not be so fickle and stick to one path, but one path can be splitted into many others and may be joined with other paths too.
Hmm, I really don't know. Although "not all who wander are lost", I'm like a lost wanderer.
haha. :S

J: 8-year old

Teacher: J, please seat with David over there.
J: But why teacher? He's naughty and bullies people all the time!
Teacher: Because you are a good and quiet girl, and he can learn to be good from you.
*In J's mind: But he might bully me! And why put me with bad company?
J: But teacher!--
Teacher: No buts! sit there as i tell you to.
J: (walks reluctantly to her new seat) Yes teacher.

Everyday, he bullies her and makes fun of her. Spitting at her was his favorite joke. Even when she was bullied during lessons, the teachers seemed blind to it. And being quiet, she didn't know how to speak up and just tolerated. As time when by, her only "friend" was the bully who sat beside her.
Soon, she dreaded going to school. But her parents only chided her for being disobedient when she begged to return home. Also, they only cared about her grades and since they weren't good, she would be punished & caned , therefore she didn't talk about other "unimportant" things. Crying all the time, she was soon known as the class crybaby.
But who really understood? Who even asked?
**
Please use an adult's positive influence on a bully instead. Grades aren't everything and observe beneath the child's surface behaviour. Don't assume.

Everytime i try to think of you only as a friend,
Your cheeky words would change my mind.
Everytime i try not to look for you on MSN,
My hand would not listen and would automatically slide the cursor to your name.
Everytime i receive an sms,
My heart would immediately soar with hope that it was from you.
Everytime you say goodbye,
I would struggle in vain to not feel the emptiness in my heart.
Everytime I hope,
you would say you love me too.
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